My addiction to Sugar

Lets talk about my addiction to the sweet sweet substance we call sugar. When I started this process I had done research for my theses about how the average American eats roughly 150 lbs of sugar per year, a staggering amount from the 15lbs we ate a hundred years ago. To be totally honest I thought it was a lie in my life, I mean I didn't spend all day eating pixie sticks.... (at least not anymore!).

Growing up I ate allot of sugar everyday. I consumed soda pop, candy bars, ice cream, juice, and every kind of sweet desserts you can name. It didn't help that my family are phenomenal bakers, and I LOVE to create yummy treats myself~

Over the last few years we have been cutting juice more and more out of our diet, sometimes we have juice (from concentrate) for breakfast, but otherwise we have milk or ice water. After all this time it has become such a habit that when we do have juice we only drink a small amount, and the left over juice goes bad in our fridge because we forget about it! Even my two year old would rather have a cup of water with his juice so when it becomes to sweet he can cleanse his pallet.

One of my New Years Resolutions was to cut out soda this year. I used Ginger ale and Sprite as medicine, and still do, but now I need to have a really bad stomach ache before I drink it. Whereas I use to go through a 12 pack each month, and think nothing of it. I was using coupons which saved me money, but it still was costing 4$-5$ each month from my food budget.

I heard the saying that "We all need 2 liters of liquid a day, some of that can be from soda" during a news program, but now as I look back I see the flaws in this, especially with all of the research that has been coming forth lately with the dangers of consuming sodas.

Well, I have been trying to cut out more sugar! I was feeling ready a few months ago to drop the sweets but that when I realized that I had a real problem. It started with migraines, all day everyday, with a sensitivity to light, sound, and movement. Then I couldn't sleep because my arms and legs were twitching and jerking, I couldn't think, and my emotions were everywhere.  All I could think about was getting sugar, and at one point I was digging though my trash to see if there was something left in a package that I had previously chucked.... I had a problem, and I couldn't imagine a solution, it took many days of horrifying disabling pain before there was light at the end of the tunnel.

I have been "Processed Sugar" free for about 6 weeks, I avoid soda, candy, and treats. Anything made with white sugar. I started making smoothies to help with the sugar withdrawals, but that meant that I had to start making homemade yogurt because store bought it filled with sugar. I had to learn how to read ingredient lists so that I wasn't consuming huge amounts of sugar in the different processed foods I was still eating. I also had to learn how to cook real foods, which had its own huge learning curve!

It is July and I can say I am much more comfortable in my life now. I have a treat once in a while as a life without ever having Carmel Bars again is no life at all, but it is truly a treat now.  A side affect is that food tastes better, and I can now taste the natural sweetness of food. I had never known that carrots were sweet, or the delicious crunch of an apple. Before it had been a chore but now that my tongue has been 'cleansed' I enjoy the food that I eat, and my life is filled with joy!

I have also had my energy levels rise, and am able to get through the day without having to take a nap! Life has been so much richer, and more rewarding! I also have more time in the day to do the things that fill me with joy and help me to expand myself since I'm not trying to nod off all day.

Its a wonderful life now,

Peace ;) 

Diets Don't Work

Ok.... Lets talk about the one topic that everyone on the planet has a love/hate relationship with.... weight. I have been on a "Diet" since I can't even remember when but I remember for my 8th birthday I didn't want to eat cake because it would make me fat... I am now 28 and still can't remember when I felt comfortable with how I  looked or felt about myself, inside or out.

I was lucky as my family were dairy farmers, so I was homeschool since 8 and didn't have to deal with school peers making fun of me. That being said there still wasn't a time in my life where I felt beautiful, and even on my wedding day, I remember thinking that I was so ugly at my 189 lbs. Well, that was almost 7 years ago, and they have been 7 years of dieting failures. I have a beautiful son whom I love more then life itself, a husband who adores me, and a life that is so blessed by my Heavenly Father, but as I look in the mirror and hate what I see.

This Picture is my husband and I at Jewel Lake in BC Canada on June 1, 2015... So one month ago exactly. I had an amazing time, but as I look at the pictures all I see is my 225 pound weight, and the rolls of fat that seem to hang on my body. Missing the amazing memories that I have made with my husband. 

This is my turning point, my personal wake up call. Where I am at right now isn't working, I am not happy and I don't want to live this way. I don't want to look at my life when I am old and crotchety and think how many years I have wasted being fat and unhappy. So I have started taking action by doing something different.

 I always think the quote "The true definition of crazy :If you keep doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result!!" and laugh, but it is so true, I have been living this way for most of my life.

So how do I change what I have always done? Where do I start? I have a BS in Health Education and Promotion/computer science, so I turned to the internet. Netflix, Google, instagram, Facebook, watching several documentaries, and the top three that rang true in my brain were:

Hungry for Change

https://www.facebook.com/hungryforchangefilm?fref=ts

Fed Up

https://www.facebook.com/FedUpMovie?fref=ts

Forks over Knives

https://www.facebook.com/forksoverknives?fref=ts

I learned some big things, the first was how we look at diets. A diet isn't what we go on and off to lose weight, but what we eat as a society. I learned that I was eating so much processed foods, and nothing real, and I realized that I needed to look at my stress level in my daily life. While watching "Hungry for Change" I listened to Jon Gabriel and went to his website and bought his total transformation package. His website is http://www.thegabrielmethod.com 

That brings us to today, I have now listened to Jon's book, started practicing visualization, juicing in the morning, yoga, drinking water, cutting out processed food, detoxing from sugar, and started working on loving myself at the place that I am at now. I also went on Facebook and liked all the people who contributed their knowledge to the documentaries, so that my new feed would be filled with healthily posts and news articles, along with the documentaries pages themselves, and a couple of fitness groups.

I am going to use this blog to talk about what is going on through the process of learning who the real me is. Learning how to live life though myself and not though others, and learning how to do this in a world that is 100% against this way of thinking. My goal is to become healthy, lose the weight naturally, clean up my diet and my life, but the biggest thing I want is to be comfortable with me, the real me and to love that person.